Feeling Shitty for No Reason

by Elizabeth Furey

It’s probably the weather.

It’s been raining nonstop today, even though you thought that sort of shit wouldn’t happen more than once in a week and a tropical storm passed through 3 days ago.

It’s probably that your group of friends/creative collaborators is falling apart.

You don’t know what to do about that.  And you feel left behind.

It’s probably because you opened up communication with that person you should just forget about.

He makes you feel terrible, even though there’s a chance he doesn’t mean to.  You just miss him so much that anything short of a passionate apology or admission of love might as well be a punch to the stomach.

It’s probably that your general employment state is shaky at best.

You barely get paid for what you do do and you’re not sure what it is that you want to do.  You’re in financial limbo, lacking direction.

Whatever the reason is, you are now removing the black nail polish from your finger nails that you applied just yesterday, on the off chance that the grim color is affecting your mood.  Because when you’re feeling shitty for no reason, you’ll cling to anything that seems remotely like a cure.